In the name of spirituality we punish ourselves by depriving ourselves from the gifts of God because we feel if in case we will get lot of money or a beautiful relationship etc then we might get lost on our spiritual path or misuse these gifts or will go out of control or we wont be able to handle it or something wrong will happen, so though our conscious mind wants money or the gifts but our subcounscious mind needs something opposite in order to keep us on our so called spiritual path.
The need and want are opposite which we are not aware.
Law of manifestation follows what we need not what we want.
So we ourselves deprive ourselves from the gifts of beautiful relationships, abundance etc and live in lack, complaints, loneliness and sufferings and when we somehow manage to smile in these lacks then we feel that we have become spiritual as in this pain also I am smiling though on other hand our frequency becomes low.
As per my opinion something grossely has gone wrong.
It is our part which self sabotage our gifts at the name of spirituality and right conduct.
Spirituality is abundance, joy and peace.
We all are already connected with Supreme always. Spirituality is living our super original self and walking fearlessly and gracefully on this planet.
LEARN TO RECEIVE.
OPEN YOURSELF TO RECIEVE.
IT IS SAFE TO RECIEVE.